Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Hurts...

Today I got an email from Pampers letting me know what my 38 month old should be doing right now.  
As though that thought isn't on my mind on a continuous loop throughout the day.  We'd be potty training, playing with our little sister, throwing tantrums, eating Easter candy.  We'd be snuggling to sleep every night, kissing little cheeks, marveling at those eyelashes and those turquoise eyes.  We'd be wearing ponytails in our hair, maybe I'd have even curled it for the first time.  We'd be sporting yellow toenails to match Josie, we'd have matching outfits still, chaos, noise, laughter, and life would be so right.

Instead, the reality is my 38 month old is in Heaven.  Pampers doesn't think of that when they send out the email.  That some time between the pregnant bliss of signing up for coupons and the third birthday something just might have gone terribly, irreversibly, heart-breakingly wrong.  They don't take into consideration that sometimes the fairy tale is shattered.

I finally figured out how to opt out of their emails...  just a little too late.  That. just. hurts. 

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5 comments:

Jen said...

so sorry :( it does hurt..I had the same email a few months ago..and the mail out pamphlets..its just cruel..((hugs))

clarissa said...

Hugs! love the picture of beautiful, gorgeous, adorable, precious Marie!

2awesomekidz said...

So sorry! I used to get them as well. Heart breaking!
I pulled up at school yesterday to pick up Paige and they had kindergaten round up for next school year....I wondered how I will feel the year that Landon "should" be going to kindergarten and how sad I will be that I cannot drop him off and watch him run and play with all his friends. UGH! Keeping you guys in thought and prayer...Always!

Anonymous said...

i am so sorry.

The VW's said...

So Sorry! I can't even imagine how you must feel! Love, Hugs and Prayers!!!