I am thankful for the way we have healed in a years time. It is not a complete healing, there are times when my broken heart aches with a nearly unbearable pain, but it is a better place.
Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.
I am thankful for the peace that has taken the place of despair in my heart. There are times when I feel broken, when despair fills me. But it is always replaced with the feeling of peace that passes understanding, and I now know exactly how it feels to be carried by my Lord.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
I am thankful for my two beautiful girls, Josie and Sarah, who bring me so much joy. I am humbled that I was trusted with Marie, my princess in Heaven. From her we were given so much. I would welcome them all again and again.
I am thankful for the people that have surrounded us in the last year. Through them we have felt so much love, be carried so many times. I am so grateful for the friends and family that surround us.
I am thankful every time I hear Sarah say the word "Mama..." Josie call me "Mom" or sass me with "Mother". I cannot wait to hear Marie utter that word when I see her in Heaven.
I am thankful for my husband. I am so blessed that the last year has brought us closer together rather than driving us further apart. We have God's hand upon us. Never once has there been a resentment held, a word of blame cast... Together we have rejoiced at the highest of highs and cried at the lowest of lows.
His mouth is sweetness itself; he is altogether lovely. This is my lover, this my friend, O daughters of Jerusalem.
Song of Solomon 5:16
This year I am grateful to have grown and matured in my faith as a daughter of God, a woman of Christ. I am grateful for my Savior who gave His life for me. I am humbled at the love that I have seen over and over with my own eyes. I am thankful that traces of doubt have been replaced with conviction, faith, belief in what I am told.
Every day I miss Marie, every day I think of her and what it would be like if she were still here. I imagine her face at nearly four years old. How long her hair would be, if her eyes would still be so blue... In Heaven she is thriving and I am grateful for answered prayers. He healed her after all, "not my will, but Yours be done", and I try to thank God for it every time I pray.
This year my life is so much different from two years ago. It is so much more hopeful than last year. I pray you all have a blessed Thanksgiving. I have said it before and will say it again, in my life I am BLESSED.
Blessed is she who has believed that what the LORD has said to her will be accomplished!"