Thanksgiving was survived. I was numb. I smiled when I was supposed to, laughed when I should have, we visited with one another. Sarah didn't nap at Aunt Lois' house and was
After dinner we went to the cemetery to spend some time with her. Of course she's not there but it's nice to have a place to go. It was unseasonably warm... We kneeled on the grass and I sobbed... it wasn't easy.
Saturday we did it all again, at Luke's moms. Once again, it was okay. We're not complete, we're still really wounded and still healing... we made it through the day and it wasn't all bad. Still, it just wasn't the same and it would have been nice to have Rie there...
Josie is missing her terribly. They were best friends... there aren't many pictures where they're not together, not many things they didn't share. She is hurting and we're trying to help her.
Josie would just like to have Marie around... this is what they were doing one year ago today.
They adored each other... it's hard for Josie not to have Marie physically present. Luke and I both struggle with that. The permanence of this... Our girls were close as could be, it's hard for them to be apart.