Thursday, August 26, 2010

This day...

This day last year was the last day I spent with Little Mama.  We went to the clinic, to the drug store for antibiotics and I got her a new book.  It was a pop up of The Princess and the Pea.  We snuggled in the recliner all afternoon.  We had pizza for dinner and Marie had cottage cheese and peach ice cream...  She enjoyed dessert.

I was on edge, worried about Mama and excited to be induced and meet the baby the next day.  So fearful about leaving her.

It was our last full day together...  This is the very last photo I took of our Princess...

A warm shower, lavender lotion, a snuggle but sleep wouldn't come.  She couldn't settle down.  I spent the night at the foot of the cross.  Early morning found me crying, how could I possibly leave her to go to the hospital?  I was praying harder than I had ever prayed.  In the past God would grant Marie sleep on hard  nights within moments of my prayer.  That night we were in the valley.  I felt so alone, as though He could not hear me.

Morning came and we had to leave to the hospital, inductions start early.  I sobbed, I told her to be good.  It hurt to leave her... 

Princess Marie, Queen of the Universe.  Happy in paradise... we are missing you so much right now.


ANewKindOfPerfect said...

I simply cannot believe it's been an entire year. My heart aches for your loss Shan. Your beautiful Marie is definitely looking down today. And Sarah Kate is already a YEAR! Wow .. time sure flies.

2awesomekidz said...

Thinking of you guys, sending hugs and all our love!
Tami and Paige

clarissa said...

precious picture!

sweet, sweet Marie, you are so missed!

love that she is sitting on the lap of the King, snuggling Him. a little Princess for sure!

wish I could give you a hug, Shannon! Marie knows how much you love her... you and Luke did awesome!

Praying and praying for you all!

Cinnamon*Sticks Boutique said...

Oh Shan, sending you big hugs.

She is in Jesus' arms looking after you all, espcially Sarah Kate.

sending you peace blessings and prayers.