Thursday, July 31, 2008

Wordless...

It's been a long week. It's been busy, and hot, and emotionally it's taken a toll. Monday my friends from high school came, it was so good to catch up, and Brenda gave Marie a massage that she LOVED! Thank you so much girls, it was a special treat for us to see you! Seeing Abby and Clay was icing on the cake, they are both adorable!

Tuesday was exhausting, as all doctor appointments are. The stress of making sure my questions are asked and answered, the unknown, the constant coming face to face with Marie's diagnosis. It sucks, but it was a good appointment. I think we've made the right decision when we chose to be with the doctor that we are, I'm more certain after this last visit that he definitely has Marie's best interests at heart.

Wednesday, with Landon's service, was simply put, a sacred day. I was honored to be with his family and friends, it was heartrendingly beautiful and the love that was felt for him was tangible. I'm almost afraid to say too much, it was such a special day, I want to hold it close and not share it. I'm glad that I went, it was something that I needed to do.

Today started off well, but Marie faded fast. She slept really poorly last night, and today saw her struggling with tightness, and breathing, and finally she napped. She's still asleep now, going on three hours. I hope that it's a healing sleep, she was just so tired. She did have fun playing earlier, and so that's what I leave you with.

Photos from my little slice of heaven:


Does it get any sweeter?







Fairy wings...

All for Daddy...


Happiness is a bowl full of crazins...


6 comments:

Holly said...

Oh Shan- sometimes the most powerful words are the upspoken ones... :) Thinking of you always!
BTW, I agree.. you have to love your children not be in love with them. :)

Mindy Pfohl said...

Your pictures are just prescious! Thank you for sharing about Landon! Very understandable that you would want to hold that close! I pray for you guys often! -Mindy

Michaelene said...

These photos are so wonderful! I am brought to my knees that Marie is smiling again! My stars, these girls are absolutely gorgeous. I can't believe how tan they both are - little squirts!
I'm glad that you were able to be with Tami as Landon's life was celebrated. I'm sorry it was such a hectic week, when it rains it pours - good, bad and indifferent. I have sweet Marie clutched in prayer, ever tightly.
My love to you all.

Anonymous said...

Shan, It was a nice surprise to see the photos of litte Marie smiling. So sweet. XOXO to you, Luke, Josie, and Marie. -R.

Susie said...

Wow, your girls are so gorgeous! Marie's smile was a beautiful surprise. Those are some great pictures!

Patyrish said...

You have two amazing BEAUTIFUL little girls. They make me smile and I needed that tonight.